Shock and disbelief

Part one

Have an abortion… That’s the first thing my dad said when I told him I was pregnant. Now let me tell you a little bit about my situation. I was 24 years old , studying to do my masters which was a two years course… 2 month before the end of my course I found out I was pregnant… Was I surprised… Most definately… Was I happy… Yes and no… Why I hear you ask! Well happy because never been with my other half for 6 years and had already spoken bout having a family and I knew he would be an amazing dad… No because I was scared how my parents especially my dad would react when I told him the news.. Not only was I unmarried and having a child out of wedlock is frown upon in my culture as it would bring disgrace onto the family but the fact that my boyfriend was of a different race was something that I was terrified to disclose to my family as I came from a very strict upbringing. How would I break the news to them? But I never in a million years thought I would hear the word abortion! I could not believe my ears!!! And he goes on to stay that he will send my brother over and he will take me to have it done.. “it’s not a big deal… You just go in and out. It happens all the time” I could not believe my ears… With tears in my eyes I put the phone down turned to my boyfriend who was holding my hands and just cried my eyes out till I was completely and utterly drained and felt no emotions whatsoever. Hours later my other half held me in hIs arms and said that together we will overcome anything, that he was proud of me and that he will be by my side every step of the way. This was when I knew that I have found the man who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with… I was 2 months pregnant and for nearly every day for one month my mum and dad would ring me and curse me over the phone. Saying how disgusting I am, how ashamed they were of me and how they would disown me if I did not do what they wanted me to do.. I would spend nights crying to my boyfriend that I would never get rid of my baby and I even told my dad one day that the only way I would not have this baby is if I died… And he was so angry. I had never heard such vile things from him and what finally broke me was when he said that he will come there and rip the baby out of me..

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